NiNi's Documentary

Just when we thought that NiNi couldn't get any more popular, the queen of pop went ahead and released a 90 minute autobiographical documentary on her life which aired last night on HBO. In it there are very touching moments like one part where she revealed what she called the "Saddest day of her life" which is when she had a miscarriage when she first got pregnant. and she revealed that she went in the studio to write a sad song about it because that is the only way she knew how to deal with it, and the result of that was the song we all know which is called "Why" At the time we didn't know what that song was referring too, but now we understand why she sounded so emotional in that song. "It was a heartbeat, so happy, I even felt kicking!, then next week I go to the doctor, no heartbeat.....It was the saddest day of my life, only thing I could do is go pour out my emotions in the studio surrounded by my friends, and that became the song "Why" which is the saddest song I've ever recorded" says NiNi in a voice-over. She also showed us home footage of her enormous pregnant belly and while she was pregnant but still on stage performing and still in the studio recording, which told us one thing, SHE IS NOT HUMAN! lol....She shows her on the beach laid out with her belly poking out and she was singing to her belly. She also speaks about why she had to let go of her producer Polo, and speaks on the artists who has been dropped, and she says "At first I used to be nervous about how people would think of me, they might think I'm too difficult, so I didn't speak on much, but now I DON'T care, I feel if you know the way something should go, go for it, the others will thank you later" Says NiNi and she also revealed that everything from how her shows are set up, how her videos are, how her music sounds is quote "All Me" she directs and produces everything that she does, because she feels she knows herself better than anyone else. There are some goofy moments in the film, such as NiNi and Nicki acting stupid at the label putting on their British accents together bothering the security guards and the artists and making everyone laugh. She also states the relationship she has with her artists "I'm very hard on them, but not any harder than what they are used too, but they all know I love them, we have disagreements many times, and maybe even arguments but they love me and I love them, they know why I'm hard on them, and they respect and appreciate it, Im very proud of them" she says in another voice over. She also says that people look at her as being scary or mean, but she says the high demands of her job make her that way, but in reality she is a nice person and quote "Anyone who really knows me knows I'm not a bitch like how people make me out to be" She shows her crying, she shows her singing in the shower (no nudity of course) although she does have a towel wrapped around her, and she shows her going to meetings and setting up shows with her tour buddy and recording songs and the hard process she goes through to bring us all the things up that we love from her. She shows how she organizes her PW line and how she makes clothes and how she works with charities to provide those less fortunate. The president also makes a brief appearance in the film and shows her performance at his inauguration. There is so many personal things shown and revealed, and she speaks on things that she never spoke of to anyone, mainly her husband and children and says they are "The greatest thing in my life" any of you guys who don't have cable and wasn't able to catch the most powerful documentary of the year, click here to check it out~ and to NiNi, we love your life even more, because you show us that at times you aren't human, but despite your queen and Hollywood status you show you are human first and we love how well you open up. Congrats!